I'm coming back to the heart of worship...

Things have been pretty rough the past few months. Slowly but surely i have removed myself from the driver seat of my car and let God take control again...(i seem to have a problem with thinking "i can do it")
I've been struggling with feeling like i'm not enough. I'm not good enough at school, i'm not good enough at being a christian, i'm not good enough at being myself. I'm not good enough at being a sister, daughter, grand-daughter, niece, woman. I'm not good enough at anything. Most if not all of these are lies. but they are true feelings i've had, and still continue to fight the war within myself.
But...
Contrary to some beliefs. I am making progress. I am changing. I am searching for truth, not through people but through the Bible. I've been really interested in learning more about the history of the bible(old testament) so, i started with the celebration of the passover, since it was that time of year. its interesting. i wish i had more resources. more books, more PhD's around.

but i do believe that if you seek you will find. so i'm seeking. and i will find, eventually.
Pray for me as i continue this battle.


It was good to see the whole family at easter. Its been so long since we've all been together, but no matter how long, we all still slip into those spots in our family...i'm almost 21, but feel most comfortable at the "kids table" its interesting the dynamic of our family. how different we all are. i love it.

Heres a good pic of me jim-rowdy and little loo loo on easter.

and lauren playing 007....a little family ritual every holiday.